Frustration

It won't change
you're just the same old thing

Recently, I'm hoping for it. Hoping for it to actually happen ;) As days pass,the chance started to fade, one by one. People keep bringing me down,I don't mind them but sometimes,the circumstances just won't allow. I have a few chances for IT to happen but, there's always something that stands on my way ;( I keep telling myself, GOD has HE's own plans. Maybe so. I've experience the same routine over and over again for about seven years now. Just want it to get slightly better for 'IT'

KICK BUTTOWSKI

He's a short suburban daredevil! ;)
I'm obsess with him!
He wears a helmet, and a daredevil costume ;)
HAHA!
He's my new JUSTIN BIEBER
Nah,never :D
I'm dealing on a new routine,so I'm crazy lately

FINALLY

Umm,THANKS a lot for writing it in English ;) I feel so relief! The post below here is not about you,though. It's just that, I no longer treated like I use to get treated.
So,the last thing I need is for my bestest friend to leave me.
lots been going in my mind and I can't talk to anyone,anymore.
you just can't make it up to me,I'm sorry

I <3 U 2

QUOTE

"I just wanna say,I hate you a lot! and if I can kill you, I would ;) Scary,right? serves your right! You're a loser! URGHH! I hate you so much,I just want to explode! Don't even bother talking to me,you DUSHBAG! yup,I just call you a dushbag ;) cuz you are one,deal with it! you're not better than me,you're a loser! Ding Dong! It's the third week,where is it already? I would just wanna perfectly place you in the bowling lane and hit a strike! I WOULD! I WOULD! I wanna keep you aside as the empty photo frame! so when I look at you, I wouldn't even care if you're not there! You have no idea how piss I am on you! yea,and again, don't talk to all my friends like you're better than them! don't think it's ending,cuz it just started!"

THANK YOU

MY JUNE

JUNE, I expect this beautiful month would be the month I'll NEVER forget,in a good way. And it actually happened oppositely.My fellow friends went to boarding school,I got my first worst grade ever and had celebrated the worst birthday in the history of birthdays! Guess what? even my 'bestest' friends did not give me anything! but awkwardly,someone pretty unexpected wished me 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY',so thank you. I got a ring,3 cupcakes and wishes. I don't really care about the presents actually,it's just I feel not apprecciated. 2010 starts getting better,but then,it got worse.Usually,I love goin to school,not anymore. Now,my true friend is my mp4 and my laptop. You can imagine how awful is that? If you can,join the club! I'm looking for a new best friend,though. But,I will not make all of this crap get in my way.The good thing is,I start getting more positive but more aggressive ,I'm now kinda awesome,I will make people respect me in that way.I find this someone though,that someone is something I rely my happiness on.I'm weird.

I actually notice something,I am actually pretty good in this thing .Idon't feel comfortable typing it though.But,it's my secret talent. I wish to achieve it,let's see,,haha.I keep telling myself that GOD would make my year a bit better.It's actually happening step by step.haha,,I'm weird again! I don't talk much on crazy things like I usually do now,I just keep quiet if I don't feel like talking. Blogging is one of the way I try correcting and progressing my grammar. I just started,so,no comments! haha,,that's weird!LOL!


I guess that'd do for the day,
GOODBYE ;)

FRIENDS

YOU are my friend
YOU are my soulmate
YOU are like a sister to me
YOU are everything to me

Up there is how I describED you ,the first time we're apart, I really just want you to be close to me. I tried every single thing I can to make it happen. and guess what? It did happen. I'm just really glad :') After a while, you treat me like I don't even exist. You treat other people even better. I don't really mind though.But,day after day you get a little overboard and carried away. I know that you will change. I know you will get influence in all of this but, I guess I'm just not ready to go through it yet. You are very special to me. I use to call you each night. I just never know why ;) Usually when I walk beside you, I'll feel that kinda warm loving vibe and we would just giggle and laugh like there's no tomorrow. But now,when I walk beside you,I'd feel like I'm walking next to a stranger. You're closer to someone else now. I miss all the days and special moments we've spent together,keep moving forward ;( I'm alone now. nobody to talk to,nobody to express my feelings on,nobody to share thoughts with,nobody to even share a laugh with,just nobody. I feel so lost and nothing without your presence.My life now is just something I'm force to go through.I'm being a little melodramatic, but I'm never wrong.Anything can happen in the future but,YOU are still MY best pal.